I am one of those…

as it turns out…I am one of those people.. One of those people whom others dont know what to say.. dont know if its okay to bring up Dad or not. One of those people who lost a parent, and its so awful and sad but you can never imagine it happening to you. You wonder vaguely a few weeks later how they are holding up but eventually go on with your life because it wasnt you who had to bury your father who was only 55, with 5 kids and 3 grandchildren. Around the time of the viewing you feel so grateful to still have both of your parents and remember to tell them what they mean to you for a week or two before falling into the same routines. I am now one of those people who, if i look at a picture of dad for longer than 30 seconds, tears well up and unless i stop looking at said picture, a full on sob fest will commence. I am one of those who feels cheated because my dad’s dad lived until he was in his 90’s…90’s! I am one of those who’s grandparents , both sets, were married for 50 plus years and got to see grandchildren and great grandchildren. my parents barely got 35 years! 2 of my nieces will barely remember their grandpa, if at all and any future nieces or nephews will never know him at all and what a great, kind, caring and generous man he was. i am going to say its not fair. i’d scream it from the rooftops if i could. its NOT fair. my mom got cheated out of growing old w her husband. my sister and i got cheated out of getting walked down the aisle with our father. my brothers got cheated out of all the things they couldve learned from my dad. yes, i am not one of those…